One Week 2 Go!

One week from today is going to be the very anticipated surgery! I have been getting a lot of questions like "OMG, how can you handle that" or "how is it that you aren't completely freaking out?" Well my answers to them have been nothing short of "P R A Y E R!" Every single second of the day I think about it, and every single second I am scared! But in those times of fear, I pray and ask God to hold my baby boy in his hands as tight as can be, and too just get him (and me) through this difficult time! People have also said in passing " Oh, Im so sorry to hear that," and I proceed to tell them, "I'm Not.." in fact, I thank God every waking moment that Logan has "saggital craniosynostosis." They usually make a funny face and their minds wonder off to thinking that this chick is nuts! But, Am I? My son can be fixed, his problem is curable! Yes, its the scariest thing I have ever dealt with, BUT this problem is fixable!! It's not an uncurable cancer or an unfixable deformity, I consider myself blessed for this healthy baby with this minor problem! Logan has been a fighter from the very day he was born! At 35 weeks gestation my little man should have spent at least 2 weeks in the NICU on oxygen and other medical precautions, BUT he didn't :-) He stayed in NICU for one night and was even discharged from the hospital before I was! Sounds like a little fighter to me! I know this will not be an easy thing for either one of us, but with God and a wonderful family, I know he will be fine! So as the days dwindle down, my anticipation gets stronger and my fear never leaves, but i just have to remember it will be over soon!