My sweet Logan,
My oh my, what a tough little fighter you are! Mommy always knew that you were born to be strong, but Im definitely seeing that I was right all along! It has been 36 hours since your surgery took place and I am utterly amazed at how great you are doing! Right after your surgery when you were getting settled into your room you were in a great deal of pain! Your little cries were not so little anymore.. They were heart shattering! My poor angel, the pain seemed so unbearable and all mommy could do was look on as the nurses continued their job in the torture chamber! So many times I had to hold myself back from just running to your crib and scooping you into my arms, but I knew that those sweet nurses were torturing you for all the right reasons! They were caring for my angel when mommy wasnt strong enough too!! Upon leaving recovery, they administered some narcotic pain medicine (the good stuff as they called it) into your IV for a less painful ride upstairs. It started to work, but any little move, touch, noise, bright light, would startle you and you would again start to cry! The cry that NO mother wants to hear coming from their angel! I sat back and prayed! Please God, you got him through the operation safe and sound and I praise you for that, now if its not to much to ask, can you please take away his pain! Not 5 minutes later the nurse--also referred to as your angel, came in and said "Mom, I think I might know how to take away his pain," she smiled.. "Are you ready to hold your little one!" Without hesitation I exclaimed, "YES!" And so I did--
The second she placed you into my arms your little sleepy eyes opened and looked right at me! I felt my heart melt away and felt my warm tears run down my face. We were whole again! From that moment on, I never let go. I was so relieved that Daddy was too scared to hold you, because I didnt know if I could bare to share you with anyone :-) but Daddy didnt mind! He sat there next to us, holding your little hand and whispering how amazing you were and how proud he was of you! If there is one thing about Daddy, he may have a tough exterior, but when it comes to his boys, and mommy, he is a softy ;-)! The whole first night, I held you in my arms, and it was truly magical! No tears from your little eyes and no cries from your little lips, you were content-- in mommys arms!
Right now, you are laying in your metal prison crib, sound asleep. The only reason you arent still in my arms is because the swelling is making it hard to lay on mommy, where as being propped up with a soft pillow seems a little less painful right now! Your swelling isnt as bad as I prepared myself for. There is definitely some there, but your precious eyes can still open and no little bruises just yet! You have plenty of nurses who just walk in to see the cute little baby in room 404, and I dont think you mind the attention! You were caught flirting a time or two, just like that Big Bubbie of yours!!!! Throughout the day you had a few visitors... First was your Bubbie & NeNe! Bubbie got you two really cute "Get Well" balloons and got himself a coloring book, colors, and candy ;-)! After they left your MeMe (aunt Amy) & your Nanny Ashley & cousin John came to see you! Cousin John (aka Lil John) was born just last week and was one of your very first visitors. Mommy held you and him at the same time so yall could have a play date, but it was more like a "sleep" date lol! After they had gone home, another knock at the door. It was mommy's high school friend and her husband who came to visit next! Unfortunatly their current address is Children's Hospital--floor 6, as their 20 month old daughter has been here due to a swimming pool accident! But they stayed for a while and commented several times on how adorable you were, and they are indeed right :-) Shortly after they left, Daddy did too. He had to go to work :-/. But that was okay, because Mawmaw came to fill the void! She stood at your bedside for a good hour talking to you and making you smile real big! You are totally eating up this attention!!
Also, today you had two blood transfusions-- both of which were a success! You did so good during both and had no negative reactions to the blood! In fact, it was your NeNe's O+ blood that you recieved! Unfortunately Daddys "O+" blood turned out to be "A+" like Mommy, so he couldnt give you his! But luckily, NeNe has the same blood type as you and she was your blood donor. Also, you are only on tylenol right now for pain tolerance, and you seem to be responding to that pretty good. No more scarey cries, just a little fussy when you are ready to eat or need to burp or have a wet diaper! Another thing... There is a remarkable difference in the shape of your head already, and was so immediately after surgery! Very overwhelming and exciting!
So my sweet son, overall, your first 36 hours POST surgery have been lots of things-- painful, scary, exhausting, eventful, BUT most of all REWARDING! Continue to be tough my "little fighter" and soon we will be home where mommy will get you right back into the swing of things :-)
I love you my sweet angel and could not be prouder of you!
Love Always,
Your Mommy-xoxo