All I can say is WOW! Everyone I talked to who has been through this before said that the first night is the hardest, THEY WERE RIGHT! Shortly after getting into his room and getting familiarized with the nurses they asked if I wanted to hold him... I said "PLEASE"! I sat in the big blue chair and they finally handed me my little angel back!
The first 6 hours or so that we were in the room were very difficult. More than once I felt myself beginning to break hearing the painful cries of my little angel! The hardest part was knowing that there wasnt very much that I could do to make it better, but to just hold him and comfort him, so i did! The way I had to hold him was not in a comfortable position because they still had his little head supported, but my heart was so full of warmth and love that it didnt bother me much! I knew it was not only good for me, but GREAT for him! About an hour later the nurse asked if I wanted a break and I quickly replied NO! She giggled and said, I love when babies have mommies like you! My goal was to hold him until either my bladder was about to burst or my arm was falling offf... the bladder won! Aboout 3 hours later the nurse put him back in his crib where he stayed for maybe 20 minutes! Then back to mommies arms for the remainder of the night! 
Daddy stayed the night with us tonight... he slept most of the time lol... you can take a man out of his bed, but you cant stop him from sleeping :-D. It's okay though because mommy really wasnt in a sharing mood ;-) Daddy said he was a little scared to hold him, which is completely understandable! Mommy was too! But I set my fears aside and Im so thankful I did!Throughout the night the pulse ox machine kept dinging so we seen alot of the nurses :-) They didnt mind! At about 8 am Dr. McBride and one of her partners came in to check him over! She told me that he looks amazing with very minimal swelling! She then said, "I think we can pat mommy on the back for that one!" That made my day! Then she proceeded to tell us that he would need to blood transfusion today because his levels were really low! They are about to start that soon! Right now, he is sound asleep in the crib getting prepped for the blood! As soon as that is over, in mommy's arms he will be!!!
Here are a few pics mommy took last night--
Heidi...you and Johnny are amazing...I would have completely lost it by now. You are both an inspiration to new mom and dads! You have taken a horribly scarey situation and made it bearable. You both continue to be in our thoughts and it makes me smile knowing that little boy when through such a major surgery to have his loving parents and big brother waiting on the other side to nurse him back to health! Just don't forget to let him get good use out of the hat that auntie Beth sent him!
ReplyDeleteAW thanks Beth.. words like that are really good to hear right now! & his hat is packed in the bag :-) Right now he is still bleeding, so i will wait to put it on when thats all done! I dont want to get it all stained before i could get a good picture :-D
ReplyDeleteYou are going to do just fine when you get him home! Don't you worry, I know it's scarey but you are a great momma!
ReplyDeleteThanks girl! I will sure try like hell :-D
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